My current laptop wallpaper.
It's 10.55pm now and today, I've done nothing better else than the laundry. Time really flies and little I realized it's been 10 days since I blogged. Feeling strong Monday blues today but probably because PMS is adding onto it. I haven't found my determination and motivation to work hard. Cold calling is just SO uncompelling that I really don't know what I should do about it. It is probably one of the things I have to go through but such unfruitful work really gets more than just on my nerves.
Today, I spent a lot of time thinking of... nothing, I guess. Feels like my interest and enthusiasm for life is really drying up. There are no other jobs that I feel like trying, no other courses I feel like studying. Never thought that I would feel this way, given that I always had something in mind to do. I have no idea what's happening to me right now. Feeling useless and hopeless but I hope my Bro doesn't think of me this way yet. Still remember what D's dad said, "Motivation is self-driven and others can only encourage." But I still don't know where to find my fighting spirit back.
Seems like the hole in the heart is growing bigger.
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